I’m becoming the person I didn’t want to be, I feel like I’m never happy with anything anymore. It’s slowly ruining the things I enjoy most. I find myself, especially in the past few months just pointing out the little details that irritate me at times.

- I feel like I am watching the animation in Anime, and pointing out bad animation, errors and plot inconsistencies, and not watching the actual Anime itself. I started watching Fairy Tail, I had watched the first few episodes online and enjoyed it. As I watched more, I found myself comparing it too much to One Piece. Apart from a few episodes I really enjoyed, I just note the generic animation and how it seems they try too hard to be funny with the cheesy jokes.

- I bought some new dlc for Rock Band, and I noticed that instead of playing and enjoying the songs, I was looking for reasons that helped my opinion that Guitar Hero is better than Rock Band. Guitar Hero was one of my favourite games, I’m still disappointed that Activision cancelled the series to work on Call of Duty, while Rock Band continues to bring out dlc every week.

- I find myself getting defensive over the things I enjoy, one topic that irritates me is dvd vs blu-ray. I see comments on how blu-ray makes little difference to no difference then dvd, I try to keep my comments to myself. There was the big switch from vhs to dvd, but most people see blu-ray as unnecessary and dvd continues to sell better. I feel cheated when I buy a dvd which was produced and broadcast in HD but released in SD.

- I’ve been getting stressed as well, overthinking about friends and family. Other than my nan, I have no other (good) family left and I’m having trouble looking after myself. I also wish some people would be honest, and would talk and hang out with me as a friend. I think I’m starting to get tired of people acting nice to me because of mum’s passing (2 years since yesterday), if it didn’t happen then people would still pretend I didn’t exist.

I guess I’m done with this for now.